Blake

Stop leaving me.

I didn't mean to frighten you away.
Whatever did I do to make you look at me that way?

It's not what I said, because you gave me the words.
It's not what I did, because you simply can't be hurt.

Stop leaving me.

I don't know how it happened, but it's a price I cannot pay.
No matter what you take from me, this is something I cannot say.

It's not how I reacted, you knew that's who I am.
It's not what I retracted, something which you'd never stand.

Stop leaving me.

I poured myself and I all was for you.
I bled on pages, look what you made me do.

It's not that I tire, for the chase has made it fun.
It's not that I am searching, in your my only one.

Stop leaving me.

I've come for you once, twice, thrice.
And I'll hunt you down again tonight.

It's not so much the sorrow, but yet there still is pain.
It's not just every time we try, it still never feels the same.

Stop leaving me and I'll take you back - for better or worse.

Morbid oasis of missing passion,
rescued sooted savior.

Bridged scars karomed cross flesh.

Paths we hid from time we lost,
once again to pay the cost.

Pound the crescent, hammered moon.
Binds the flight and bends the spoon.

Small frail tender precious,
based on reason perilous.

It feeds for I hunger,
the thirst it slake'eths so.

Divined soul reminds,
why life is lived.

Sometimes forgotten that it's been,
unremembered longing takes in the pain.

When weight 'ere crushes love,
reminded 'ere love that crushes hate.

Lest not forget who you are,
dare not forget what you seek,
unknown in that which you've found,
letting go yourself for another round.

In the vein of opening up a little more, I present the Kid-Diddles™. Crystal (10) is on the left and Dawn (7) is on the right. Yes, Crystal was in fact chiseled directly from my butt - we look so much alike. This was taken the night I introduced my daughters to their first sushi dinner. Crystal, my good eater, loved it of course. Dawn ate 2 bites as usual. They're the two best daughters I could have ever asked for and they certainly teach me more about myself than I could ever teach them. I think they also know that they've got their daddy wrapped around their fingers.

Girls and Sushi

Until further notice, Today's Tarot is on hiatus. If I know me, that means I'll be posting a new one tomorrow. LOL!

I am going through a very complicated personal situation right now and do not need external factors or guidance to influence my decision making abilities. I'm sure I will have it all sorted out eventually and to be quite honest it has been an incredible learning process - one I will always cherish. The only part is not knowing how it will all turn out, but I'm fairly confident that I can already see the resolution. We'll see if I'm right.

The card represents the critical factor for the issue at hand. Six of Poetry (Cooperation): "Gods are visions of the eternal attributes, or divine names: They ought to be the servants, and not the masters of man... Cooperating in the bliss of Man obeying his Will Servants to the infinite & Eternal of the Human Form". Ability to evoke what you need by using personifying and mythologizing as creative tools. Special help is on the way. Accessing your own unconscious powers. Creative traveling. Soaring to success through teamwork. Dealing with those in high places. Acting as the courier of important information. In the creative process: This is a time to rely on your intuition to invoke the "eternal attributes" you need to get the job done; cooperate with your visions.

I have always used this time in my blogging to reflect on interpersonal issues, I have seldom sought guidance in the Tarot. Today is different and sadly unfulfilling. What is happening in my life has nothing to do with cooperation with outside forces or creative travelling. Perhaps I should attempt a little meditation, travel to an unconscious place. At least maybe inspiration for a poem or such, perhaps. Anyway, of to the mundane, the work, and the boring.

The card represents the critical factor for the issue at hand. Whirlwind: Winds of change bring new visions, opportunities. A god-send or stroke of luck. Outer turmoil concealing inner truth. Stretching your boundaries. Reaching a turning point. Unseen forces churning below the surface. A good time to honor your gods.

Who wouldn't rather be lucky than good, right? I expect no revelations or incredible insight today, but perhaps motivation to complete tasks that I have been expecting to have done for some time now. I did however stretch some boundaries today and apply to be a celebrity impersonator at some bar off of Craigslist. I've never acted, don't know how, but I think my outgoing personality will make up for my lack of experience. I expect nothing, but who knows. If something happens, I will let everyone know.

Loves

1. Mmmmm...weekends with someone special.
2. Latin Dancing class at the gym. Wow, that was a LOT of fun! Although, I'm sure I looked like a big dork.
3. Dating.
4. Good friends.
5. Hot sex.
6. Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
7. Sushi.
8. Scrubs.
9. Bringing joy out in others.
10. Games that bring people closer. And helping to get closer to the truth.
11. Sunny, perfect, wonderful days. AKA - yesterday.

Loathes

1. Getting a B in Psych.
2. Doing what you have to instead of doing what you love.
3. Work - so MUNDANE!
4. The mundane.
5. Not dating when I want to date.
6. My ever growing reading list that I don't feel as if I'm making a dent in.
7. My DVR. I will vanquish you, no matter how good you make me feel.
8. Ruining my own game. Damn me!
9. Homework.

The card represents the critical factor for the issue at hand. Eight of Science (Restriction): Being limited by mental obstacles, or by logical constraints. Feeling confined or blinded by the situation. A captive of your own ideas, anxieties, or dogmatic attitudes. Fear of failure. Repressed desires. Being in denial. Feeling frustrated or powerless. In the creative process: Make your obstructions or limitations productive by stimulating greater intensity of thought and a deeper sense of spiritual freedom.

What an interesting card considering the fantastic weekend I just had. I don't have many questions after or constrictions, only to offer that I have found even deeper meanings in someone I care about. This is also a difficult card to deal with in that I simply do not worry. I used to worry, maybe, but honestly I don't even remember a time when worry was a part of my life. In the end however, I've always like the art on this piece, even if it is a sad, bound god figure.

Flower blooms in an onslaught,
sun kissed knowledge reigns down.
That which never stopped rises again.
The tide is the tempest, binding as it breaks.

Delicate fruit greedily devoured,
immortal hunger christens hope.
Unhesitant thoughts cease mindless ramblings,
focused drive through hazy discontent.

Fearlessly undo that which was done to you,
choices made and bondage broken.
Unshackled abandon strikes hidden malfeasance,
gleam-ed tears burn crimson cheeks as learn-ed-ness returns.